Breakfast: Attempt #1 at Carrie’s 10-Minute Voluminous Oats.
Fail. I think that my microwave is a lot stronger than hers is, so I’ll have to work on experimenting with cooking times a bit more to get this right because this batch seemed to be even smaller than the oats I usually make given the same amounts of starting ingredients.
Lunch was eaten partly at home because of class ending early yesterday, but since my quiz had been a surprise there’s no picture. Tofurkey, soy cheese, spinach, hummus, and balsamic dressing sandwich with trail mix and a plum on the side.
Dinner included another Green Monster. Today was really nice out and hot so I craved something cold, plus I’m still obsessing over fruit and need to get some veggies in somehow!
Mission Stop-Counting-Calories Update:
I’m going to admit it. I have “slipped up” almost every day. Without that control that I had from meticulously measuring and counting everything out, I have definitely participated in some very not “normal” eating behaviors that I’m not all together proud of. But you know what? I didn’t allow myself to compensate for these actions. I did not restrict the next day or chastise myself for eating far too much (not just for an ED patient, but for any person).
I don’t know about other ED-sufferers, but for me, when I allow myself that freedom I tend to go overboard and binge, or what I consider a binge. These first days have been the hardest, because my body hasn’t realized yet that I’m not going to keep food from it and it’s okay to not eat that entire container in one day. I keep telling myself that my body will adjust and be able to tell my mind that it has had enough in the near future when that switch flips that, “yes, my owner will feed me and I don’t need to stock up in case she doesn’t eat for a little while”. I’m hopeful that the next week will be much smoother and “normal”. I keep going back and forth about whether I should stop having “trigger” foods around the house for the time being, but I think, in the long run, I need to keep them around, even if that means that I’ll “binge” for the time being. If I keep labeling these foods as something that I need to be “careful” around, then they will still have power over me and as soon as I let them back into my diet I will just lose control then as opposed to now.
When my body asked for food, I fed it; regardless of the time. Yes, this did mean that I had more IBS issues because I could not always take medication with my food at the same time due to pill timing. So, I have been in a bit more intestinal distress this week than usual because of it, but nothing besides discomfort (i.e. no hospital room or urgent care visits).
As far as my weight goes, yes, it has increased, a little, but not much and I don’t know how much of it can be attributed to my self-challenge and how much is just my natural weight cycle that I seem to go through in relation to my menses. I guess that this is what I wanted though. A gradual increase in weight. This is definitely not going to be like the 30-pounds-in-3-months that I had to gain during IP, nor do I want it to be. I want to be happy with my body every step of the way rather than to go through another drastic transformation that leaves me despising my own skin. I’m not in love with my weight gain, but I’ve accepted it and I’m happy with the way that I feel right now, which I think has contributed to me not compensating.
My goal for the past few months has been to get back up to my racing weight by my half marathon in September. That is still my goal. Heck, just getting my weight back up to donating requirements is on my goal list as well. I’m on my way; slowly. This summer is all about getting me there; to a place where I’m happy mentally and physically.
My focus for the next week will be on slowing down when I eat. I tend to kind of inhale my food without much chewing, which is bad for a lot of reasons not the least of which being that chewing is important in aiding in digestion which I already have enough problems with to begin with.
I didn’t end up seeing my friend yesterday, but there are talks of trying to get together some time tomorrow instead. We’ll see how this works out. She is only here for a short time to interview for a summer internship and has been trying to see a bunch of other people besides me while she’s in town. I won’t feel too bad if things don’t work out. I would feel worse if it’s like my current friends who live here year-round and still can’t see to be able to meet up with me ever.
Today was Day #1 of the two-day Art Festival here in town. This thing really draws a crowd every year. It’s insane how busy the city gets. Entire streets are shut-down, in some places even days before the festival itself even starts. Traffic gets a little crazy around here this time of year!
Lyle got here a little after lunch time and we just hung out. I can’t believe it’s already been a week since he started his internship and moved away! I’m so glad that he was able to drive down for the night, though, and spend some time with me for my birthday. We took a walk and had some Mediterranean for dinner from a “new” place in town (as in neither of us had eaten there before). It was only alright. I don’t think I’d go back again for another meal given the choice though.
Now it’s time to hunker down for the Rapture and watch a Harry Potter marathon… Or go to a Rapture party. It’ll be one or the other. See ya on the other side! Or tomorrow. Just over 24 hours until I’m the big 2-0. Okay, that’s not really a very big deal, but it does mean that I’ll have escaped teen pregnancy!
Yup, Gwen was not being very cooperative today and decided to lose signal a couple of times, so I’m not sure how far exactly I ran today (which really bums me out!), but it was at least this much. I had planned on just 7 originally, but I really wanted to push for 8. Unfortunately, right at the end I got a massive cramp. I tried to see if I could run it out, but it just was not going to happen so I stopped right away. Not bad considering that it was so hot out, so, overall I’m happy.
Mile 1: 8:44
Mile 2: 8:19
Mile 3: 8:07
Mile 4: 8:07
Mile 5: 8:10
Mile 6: 8:22
Mile 7: 8:00
Mile 7.6: 4:58
No shin or foot pain like I was having earlier this week, yay!
What is your favorite post-workout fuel?